January 2012
1 post
December 2011
6 posts
nothing
bon iver and beatles and just that. bitten. despite it all. rather breathless than without. thunder and burn. streamless pearls. rewind please. is there a u-turn? plenty of livers. too much to give. interwoven within, intergrated and all that stuff
November 2011
1 post
September 2011
3 posts
Bear
Ever since I knew tumblr, i like Capuchine teribly much.
Ever since I heard Slow Hands, I love Interpols.
Ever since that Saturday morning in the Zoo, I understand how addiction feels like,
how it is really hard not to be dependence,
or to throw the cigarettes away.
If time is my vessel
Hundred miles. Like rainbows.
Like sunset at the end of the sea.
Like the stars beyond the skies.
Like you.
Like the desert.
From mirage to hallucination and less dopamine.
From pretentious to lies to less and less..
August 2011
1 post
May 2011
1 post
stupidity
what I was looking for, was right in front of me.
April 2011
1 post
my plunge
The best remedy of indecisiveness
is making decision
Hence here I am
Taking my chance
but it feels melancholic.
February 2011
2 posts
What the snowman learned about love →
The feeling is just so pleasant.
It made the beat sounds more melodious to dance to,
and the sunset is picturesque more than it ever did before.
But I felt the same thing,
2 years ago.
January 2011
1 post
The cascades
Here i am now,
as his schatzi,
totally defenseless.
But reality sucks somehow.
So please May, be hurry.
November 2010
1 post
October 2010
1 post
August 2010
1 post
Fats
I have lost my emotions, my passions, my enthusiasms
Where did they go.
they disappeared 2 years ago.
Without a note.
and I have never found them back.
Never did they return.
Even with my endless effort.
What must I do to gain what’s gone?
July 2010
12 posts
“What though the radiance which was once so bright? Be now for ever taken from my sight, Though nothing can bring back the hour Of splendor in the grass, of glory in the flower; We will grieve not, rather find Strength in what remains behind” — William Wordsworth
Dream Theatre
I have a dream
a dream to have weekend times three
this sunday is no sundae
“Did you ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many people have pictures of you.”
-One Tree Hill, by Lucas-
a local song that I so very much love
ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersamaku kaku aku melihat mu lidah kelu sedangkan aku mahu kau tahu aku cinta padamu aku benci padamu aku cinta aku benci padamu
never fail to make me feel in love ;)
To see you...
This is the kind of song that suits me. That gives...
If my wish came true what must I do
i’m always scared to move out from my comfort zone, to make life-changing decision, to quit my job, to change myself. it all scares me.
you
I want only one but there were many years of emptiness until a year where I counted 20.and with that one at 20, i kept for 3 years faithfully. not fully but just truly.
that ended with a pinch of funniness. After some time, I got that adrenaline rush again. moments were candy like. but confusion stepped in and that ended without a dot. while thinking if there was ever a dot at the end, i got...
May 2010
13 posts
Slug-eating dare
If I cook whatever I like, live as I wish, Dance even when my disc slipped, jump into a bottomless blackhole, spin and walk, spin and run when my head is aching, wink at you and who knows who, board a plane to an unknown place, eat jelly when it simply looked jellish and slimy… I would have been hospitalized like the guy who swallowed raw snail because of a dare.
yes, i meant something else
balloonburst
Every little lies, takes the little red away, Every time it does, it does not go astray, I pump it full, and all looks okay, but a little white lie again, the red burst away. Then I inflate it full again, with wishes and prayers, as blissful as I may to forgive and forget, to love and not regret.
all over again
That heart beat again
that tingling sensation again
that butterfly again
the giggles and grins
the wishes and dreams
at random times of the day
at every emptiness found
and thus, what love is?
Super power
of a +O is strong intuition
my needs, my selfish self
I need a tennis retreat. or a beach retreat..
and pump out more endorphins.
I Need to eat dark chocolate.
waaht
why?
i will never know.
Patience is virtue kan.
How long more shall I wait.
When can I stop.
Keeping it all when all I want is tell
I hold back my words.
I hold my anger.
and I saved the world.
I crush mine. To gain the other.
Only to leave it one day.
Will I?
But I want it and I can’t let it go.
What shall I do?
I hold myself
when I can’t at all.
April 2010
4 posts
March 2010
8 posts
